Get ready for a very honest post.
I said something out loud a few days ago that stopped me in my tracks. I have always known it, but I have never said it out loud.
Sometimes I don't do what I want to do because I am terrified of what my Christian friends' reaction will be.
While to some this may sound wise, to others (or most) it sounds superficial. We live in a world that tells us not to care what others think, to be true to "yourself,"and to do what makes you happy. But as Christians we are taught to seek Christian counsel, be true to God, and do what makes God happy. Sometimes as a Christian doing what makes God happy doesn't make you happy at all... but you know it's right.
Then there are the gray areas; the areas where you aren't sure of God's will, or when your friends disagree with your interpretation. This is when I get terrified because, in all honesty, I think some of my friends are "better" than me... or "better Christians" than me.
Yep, I said it. Let's stop this down.
THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS A "BETTER" PERSON OR A "BETTER CHRISTIAN!" We are all sinners, and God loves us all the same no matter what. So to compare myself to others is just ridiculous. Yet I do it all the time.
With that said, I love and respect my friends very much. And I value my Christian friends' advice. They are called to hold me accountable - to remind me of God's Word - or if necessary, to tell me when they think I am making a mistake. This is what crushes me, because I never want to disappoint them. I want to make everyone happy all the time...
I think you can see where this is going. I am focusing on people instead of the Lord!
At the end of my life it's only going to be me and God. The same rule applies for every decision I make... my choices are between me and God and
no. one. else. Like Sara Groves sings, "When I stand before the Lord I'll be standing alone. This journey is my own. Still, I want man's advice, and I need man's approval. But this journey is my own."
Christians, listen to your friends. But listen to your heart as well. Jesus is in there. :)